A New Fork in the Road

So 6 months later I'm ready to post an update. How in the world has it been 6 months?

Still not pregnant.

Still no clear reason I cannot get pregnant.

We tried in March, skipped April because we were moving and it would have given us another December baby, tried in May and then found out our insurance had declared bankruptcy. I got an email from my insurance broker that if I got pregnant in the next 60 days no complications from the pregnancy would be covered by insurance. Shit. Stalled again.

So we took two months off. It was actually kind of fun, we went on vacation, worked on the house, enjoyed summer with our sweet 2 1/2 year old. I realized I would have another Christmas of just Milla and that excited me. I plan to spoil her rotten this Christmas.

So July came and it was time to try again. I went to my OBGYN had my annual exam and decided to give clomid another shot. It took me 20 days to ovulate on the clomid and my cycle was 35 days long (normally 28). What an agonizing 35 days. In the end the clomid failed to work again.

I spoke with my OBGYN's office yesterday and we are at a stalemate. They refuse to be more aggressive and I refuse to continue taking 50mg of clomid every month for the next 6 months (their suggested course of action). So I took the plunge and asked for a referral.

During this entire year and a half journey I have dreaded this phone call. The one to the fertility specialist where I admit I am infertile. It seems so much less serious when you are just dealing with your OB, but at this point I truly believe OB's should not be treating infertility and you should RUN to a fertility doctor as soon as those tests come back clear!

So after much discussion with my friends (amazing how many people in my life have needed a little help along their reproductive road) and discussion with my husband (who of course had a hard time basing his opinion on anything but their website design - HA!) we've chosen a doctor.

I chose him for convenience (he is in Fort Worth and Roger will be able to watch Milla when I have treatments done) and he is well known as a pioneer in single embryo transfers (should it come to that). We've decided we really don't feel comfortable transfering more than one egg at this point, so we needed to find a doctor that felt ok with that as well (a lot of them just want their numbers to look good so they want to transfer 2 or 3 eggs).

I plan on updating more as this journey begins because other blogs on fertility treatment have helped me SO much to make up my mind to do this. I am excited to meet with him and I am praying he will have some answers.

August 24th can not get here soon enough!